It's probably a phase or something...maybe it's the holidays...maybe it's the fact that I have had a killer cold/headache for the past three days...who knows. But I am honestly having a hard time lately. I am struggling living so far away from all the people that truly care about me, the people I want to be surround by and spend quality time with. It's hard for me to live in a place where I feel so isolated...I haven't always been this way...as a matter of fact a little more than a year ago I would have been just fine living a life holed up in my bedroom somewhere away from it all, completely isolated. Last winter I went through an extremely hard time in my life and then right through an amazing time shortly thereafter...long story and I may tell it to you one day if you don't already know...don't feel much like getting into all that tonight. I just had to put it out there that I really feel like I am treading water out in the middle of the ocean with crashing waves and waterspouts all around me. Oh sure I know I will get through all this...I mean I always do somehow...but do I have to pretend that I'm not struggling to get through it? I think not. I love my job...but I really hate my job environment...I really love and miss all my close friends and family, but most of them are 3000 miles away enjoying the snow right now (or not enjoying it in some cases to which I would gladly trade them places so they can have the rain here right now and Portia and I will take full advantage of the snow!!) The trouble is it comes down to what makes you happy and who can you trust...right now, in this moment, I am not happy with the way things are going and I don't have anyone around me I can trust....save for the people on the opposite side of the country from me. I am trying not to bitch here...it's just the way it is right now....things will change...I know that...the only constant in life is change....well that's all for now...like I said, just putting it out there...get it off my chest so to speak....a little venting via blog...
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HonK HonK HonK. I saw a huge flock of geese flying yesterday. Big enough to be your flock, my flock and Harold's flock. I sent them your way.
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