11 December 2007

Upside Down...the greatest feeling, JJ is right who says I can't do everything?


So it's been a few days since I have posted anything and man is my world a lot different now! It is very hard to put into words all the things I have come to understand about myself and the world around me. It is very hard to put into words my true feelings and the type of change that I have experienced in my life. I now have a new world view and this view is the greatest view I have ever had or seen. Today I went on a hike after an interview this morning. I snapped this photo while on that hike. Just look at all the amazing colors that the light brings through. Do you see them? This is an image I have probably seen a thousand times in my life but never saw it this way. This was the warmest I have ever been in the sunshine and it was 20 degrees with snow on the ground at the time I snapped this shot. It is an amazing feeling to be in the light and to let your light shine in this world. That is one lesson I have learned of late that I will not be quick to forget. Like I said it is hard for me to share with you how excited at living life I am and how alive I feel right now. As my best friend in the world put it: "Its like you are sitting in the sling shot of life and God has just pulled it back and it about to let you fly."

I am so free and so ready to fly. If you ever get the chance to listen to singer/songwriter Beth Nielsen Chapman I encourage you to do so...especially her song "FREE" this song is the best way to put into words exactly what I have experienced lately and how I feel.
FREE
by
Beth Nielsen Chapman

I had it tough when I was just a little kid
It didn't matter what I thought it didn't matter what I did
I felt the doubt for what I lacked right from the start
It did a number on my head but it could never touch my heart

Cause I had just enough imagination
Just enough to keep the faith
That somehow I would think of what to do
When I'd get lost in a momentary weakness of emotion
All the angels came along to help me through

Life pulls fast changes
Wind blows past pages
All I see is, I don't need this
Highstrung tight rope walks
Ticking time bomb clocks
Scratch my name off, cut these chains

I'm free...Kicking out of that prison
I'm free...Singing those words of wisdom
Let it be...Nobody's gonna put the blues inside of me..

And in the stress to be the best I've done it all
I've slammed the doors I've jammed the locks
Laid the bricks, I've built the walls
No one could tell me back then why joy eluded me
Kept bumping into that misery locked up deep down inside of me

Took that rage and I
Turned that page and I
Packed my tools, went back to school
And I've passed my graduation
I hold my Ph. D. in crash test blues
I've paid those dues

I'm free...
Repeat Chorus

Time flied by in photographs
And paper scraps and songs
Here I stand in ruby slippers
Three taps takes me home...I'm free...

1 comment:

Grandma Beth said...

Congratulations on your hard work. God bless Bob Hoffman!!!
Your joy makes me cry !!!
I love you Stephan